My brain works with structure. I put things into imaginary spreadsheets, liking big ideas in chunks, and allows me to reference a whole bunch of stuff really quickly. It allows me to absorb a new situation, reference previous occasions for options, evaluate those options, and take action without a whole lot of panic.
Well, more like a duck on the water – peaceful on the surface but paddling like crazy underwater.
With that, there’s an upper limit on the amount of new data I can absorb in any given time. That number changes based on fatigue, hunger, and mood. Right now, I’m running at about 120% intake. It’s making me lose focus in other areas to make up for the backlog. A week or so ago I was running a squat routine, clearly lost focus in the middle of a rep, then felt a tweak. A wake up call I guess.
And sleep is harder to come by too. My brain is digesting all my normal things (wife, kids, job, hobbies) and now has to deal with
- wife & kids return to school
- new kids activities and scheduling
- new job starting in a week
- job opportunity for an interesting position, outside comfort zone
- coaching duties for kids hockey (start of year is crazy)
- friends in social circle going through really rough spots
- my comp hockey team needing WAY TOO MANY SPARES
The act of digesting all this new intake means a lot of brainpower and not enough hours in the day. So I’m now thinking about this stuff when I would normally be resting. Falling asleep is taking longer. I am dreaming about these things. I am putting them in their boxes, and building plans to – for lack of a better term – mentally survive.
The good news here is that nearly all of this is good problems to have, and they are extremely rewarding. I also know that quite a few of these items will get dramatically better in the next 2-3 weeks. Having managed way more chaos for longer periods of time, I know that this is just a speed bump.
For now, I am hyper-focused and obsessed with this new data set. Just need to ensure that the essentials that make my family health & happy are not neglected. Writing about it, that’s a big part of it. Best cure for everything is sunlight.